Depression has always been close to me. I’m one of those highs and lows people. The last two years, I have had more lows than highs, and its hard to dig your way out no matter how hard you dig deep. For ten years I have been taking prescription SSRI’s, but about a year ago I decided to stop.
My friend, who is a clinical nurse, and knows me better than anyone at this moment of my life, suggested my depression is chemical, and I should consider going back on them. So four days ago I did.
The change was immediate. A bout of diarrhoea, loss of appetite and significant loss of libido, but! No more waking up and not wanting to get out of bed. No more panicking over my future. No more inability to focus my thoughts in a positive direction.
The libido thing is an issue, but I figure it has caused me more trouble than its worth, so I can live with that.